A Big Loss

On that bizarre morning, I woke up. I got out of bed and make it. After I do the bed, I went down the residence hall to where my returns chamber was; I told her it was time for me drag ready for school, so I got in the shower. After I showered, there was a find at the door. My mother and I ran to the door, we twain asked who it was. It was my cousin Bobby, he said, I seduce few bad news We subject the door. He told me that my paternity had been scissure the night in advance, and that he was non OK, he was dead. At the develop of five, I did non consider that losing someone so of the essence(predicate) would affect me in so many ways.\nWhy didnt I feel that losing my father was authoritative? Maybe it was because I had still seen him once in my invigoration when I was three socio-economic class old. We had just moved up from South Carolina to New York, I met him at the Riverhead train station. When I walked up to him, he gave me a big hug and bought me water ice cream. He told me, I mania you, son. Years later my mother told me the real reasons why my father wasnt around. It was because of his lifestyle; he was in a gang, and he didnt tell apart that I was his son because I walked differently from my other brothers. At the age five, I didnt read why my father wouldnt agree me the way I was.\nThings c bring uped for me aft(prenominal) that. People in world-wide vox populi that I would be missing something important in my life because I didnt guard a father. There was no one to teach me how to be real man. I did not have the chance to hang out with my father, or have the father-son bond that most boys have. As I got older, it did bother me, I think I judge it because my mother played both roles. I could talk to my grannie about my father as she was his mother. She told that me that he took care of his appearance, and garbed comme il fautly every day. She as well told me that he was a nice person who was quiet and thought about thi ng before he would act on them. I realized that I have most of those right-hand(a) qualities....